Be it mature or immature. Many people experience some things which are written below. You know you can’t help yourself get rid of a lame drama. And to some extent, other people may refer to it as booooring! People today are so hungry and confident to seek for humor. More fun. More trippin’. More kiddin’. But when you go down, you would find yourself more funny than when you were jokin’.
Ø You always look happy and you like it. When hanging out, you laugh at the top of your lungs but you think you embarrass yourself in front of your friends without them knowing it. And when you crack jokes, and when they are gone, you would tell yourself that you were funny. And when you got home, you still laugh for a moment because of what you are doing with your life outside. And when that crinkles of small laughs fade, silence goes next and you will be overloaded with sadness. It’s like performing a great concert with the crowd jumping so high with the beat and they are enjoying very much not knowing that you’re just lip syncing. And when it’s over, everybody is gone and you just watch the light turning off towards you. Then after all that, you will blame yourself because of shame. You would say to yourself that you shouldn’t have do something like those which will make you hate you.
Ø Because of depression, things just grow up inside your mind unexpectedly like mushrooms. When you have big problems, you wanted to forget it by thinking of other things. Like these: you want to climb all mountains and wander through all the beautiful forest. You want to memorize all the words and meanings in the dictionary and all facts in the encyclopedia. You want to know the lives of people in history – not those who are popular until now but those who are nobody today but unknown somebody back on. You want to know all people who died in shipwrecks. And lastly, you wanna know who you will be?
– That’s so weird. Thinking insane things may even make the problem big.
Ø You always update yourself with celebrities’ lives like you can’t live without them. You think they are born for you.
- You are always concern about the fame of these people but you can’t make yourself a celebrity of yourself.
Ø You can’t sleep at night because of thinking of what to react, how to act, how to deal, what to think and who to be.
- As the matter of fact, those things don’t really matter as long as you are living your life on how you wanted to.
Ø From the undying pains and regrets from the past, you are confused of what to do about it. If you will forget it without doing any actions for it or will act as the same person but pretend that you’re already okay but really kills you or will revenge or will accept it and be who you are to forgive yourself and do what you have to do and move ahead.
- It’s ridiculous but you should choose not the right thing but the best. Sometimes, you insist that you are comfortable of what is wrong than what is right. And you are happier of what you want than with what you need. And that’s alright because it doesn’t matter if it is right or wrong, in reality. For the results of choices, not all right things can make you live better and not all wrong choices can let you fall on the ground. And for the best thing, you should know how it will not come back to you. You can face it or you can also forget. Running away doesn’t always mean of cowardice because sometimes you need to quit and save your ass for the best. And it’s not about bravery anyway. It is about how you get over. Sometimes, you can even impersonate yourself of who you wanted to be in order to go on with your life. Those are some ways to find peace by imagination. But it is up to us to be brave or not and to be real to ourselves or not. It depends if we want this or that way as long as you will live happy at the end.
Ø The world is wonderful but you feel nothing. In your life, there are times that you feel so down continuously. And you start to make your self outcast from the world, knowing that it’s not the world which makes you an outcast. You hate to rethink of things and memories with old friends and always prefer to be alone and go to a place where nobody knows you.
- You are making it hard on yourself. As the truth, you are the only one who is screaming in silence, you are the only one who is dancing without music, you are the only one shouting out to the world that everything is not okay. And you say, ‘all for all, one for one’?. You make your life so dramatic even though it is already unacceptable and sometimes not in place anymore. You immune yourself with dramatic moment of silence to break yourself. That’s miserable.
Ø You are conscious about your physical beauty. You spend your money and time for surgeries and wild cosmetics.
- You’re making yourself uglier because you are not proud of what you have and who you are as a creation of God. There are more important things to live with and realizing that many people can’t even afford food. And you? You just waste your money for some fake beauty?
Ø The world is not good to you but you don’t feel down and you still smile. That’s because you think present problems will past and temporary which is truth. You think positive all the time. That’s good.
Ø You are so happy because you won at something, a competition or contest. You feel it as the happiest moment. And after that day, you feel the same again as the old. You are not feeling good at that way because you were expecting that it would change your life, so you rally on yourself why it ended like that.
- As a lesson, winning is an ingredient to develop confidence and not to depend on it for the rest of your life. And you should remember that it’s not victory or success that makes you different from anybody, it’s just you. Don’t you know that success is sometimes one’s failure. And even some successful people has fear about success. And for that, you will understand.
Ø To amaze the world of who you are is not the point of living.
Ø You love to hate people but that doesn’t mean that you hate to love people because you are one.
- Don’t be so self-centered.
Ø You break some hearts in order to let yourself move on from something.
– In fact, you don’t need to do that in order to be better. You can be the best of who you are in many good ways.
Ø You already exceeded the process of moving on. And you made the wrong turn already.
- You have to be smart of self-thinking when you already feel good enough. Being overachiever is not good.
Ø You are unaware of everything. You watch television until you catch headache. You punish your eyes in front of the computer screen. You eat, eat a lot and eat again. You will have a sick drama while your ipod is on. You will sleep for 2 hours at night. You drive yourself so crazy. And when you’re crazy enough, you will ask yourself, ‘what am I doing with my life?’ and then take a suicide.
– you are not helping yourself. You are making it worst.
Ø You belittle yourself. You think of yourself living out of this world. You are smart enough to think that you are not smart enough. You think you are dumb.
- Low level of humanity is not good. Hm. Being dumb is not the worst thing in the world. Don’t hurt yourself with stupidity.
Ø You always do your self congratulation because you feel happy, successful and rich.
Hm. – That’s not the best way to deal with life when you are lucky.
Ø You torn yourself with bitterness and revenge because you are always rejected. You are doing your best but nobody notices your effort and you know that you don’t deserve to get a reaction of ‘better lack next time’. You always fall on the ground and keep on rolling and rolling around in a circle which will never be perfect.
- Be confident of who you are. And another thing, it’s not you who can prove that somebody deserves something or not even to your own self. Don’t give up so easily. You have the time to be who you want to be. Don’t hurry yourself. There are always chances. God will never bring you down if you have faith.
Ø You don’t feel pity on people who have been down all their life but they still have the guts to live high. You are not guilty or sad or feel unlucky for them. Instead, you get your inspiration from them. And they can be your instrument to go ahead.
– That’s fantastic.
Ø You think that the things and people that you like a lot are made and born for you.
- That’s okay but it is not good to exaggerate it.
Ø You concentrate 100% on your love life. You make yourself pathetic.
- Think smart when it comes to love thingy. You might hurt yourself when it ends. You will suffer without dignity to yourself. Learn to love yourself before loving somebody else but not too much.
Ø In your life, you almost learn many things everyday but you don’t know how to penetrate inside your head and heart. That’s because you think that it’s no use to have what you need if you feel that it isn’t given.
– Concentrate.
Ø You let yourself affect deeply about what others say about you and then you’ll accept it for self-destruction. You ugly up yourself in order to exhibit the effects of the other on yourself.
- That’s a big negativity for you and you should wash it off from you.
Ø You are a writer. You are fond of writing some pieces to encourage and to help whoever reads but you yourself don’t understand what you’re writing why you can’t encourage and help yourself. You can serve other people but you can’t serve yourself. You can change other people’s life but you can’t do it on your own. And sometimes, you don’t even believe on what you feel. You think you are blamed for not being able to do what you wanna do. You just watch your own world crash in front of you.
- So lame.
Ø You know more of who you are than who you are not.
- Sometimes that’s even better. That’s a process of knowing yourself more.
Ø You are afraid of losing as you are of success. You are goin’ insecure of being you. Many things pop out in your mind which scares you from being so famous or overachiever because you are not comfortable of it. That you are already a ‘so-much’ person. Go to the place where you wanted to be, where you can live without worries or agitations about anything. But if it’s the fame which doesn’t leave and will always follow you, then live as if you’re the person you wanted to be. Don’t bother yourself with it. Live as if there is no power of fame. Go on the line where you are satisfied.
Everything sounds corny but I know something of you flowed with the words you’ve read here.
June 3, 2009
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